One last garage sale and the end of Summer School

Saturday was the last garage sale before I head on the road to visit family and friends. The big stuff went, and that is what I was most worried about. It did take 3 trips to Good Will after the sale was over and that, I must say, was very traumatic. I have a lot of commitment issues, I am well aware, but the one thing I have always had is MY STUFF. The stuff I have chosen to surround myself with has been with me my whole life. So, to let it go, even for a price, but even more so for free, left me feeling very open and vulnerable.That is a bad place to be when you have issues. I cried at dinner and called my mom. She made a good point that has been said before that you must first lose yourself before you can really find yourself. Maybe this experience will allow me to overcome my issues and become a "normal" human? Three days later, I have forgotten what I had and why I needed it. Today was the last day of summer school so I am fully focused on packing my car and hitting the road for what I am calculating may be a 21 day road trip. This is the adventure I have always dreamed about. Having nothing to my name; no bills, no commitment, no adult responsibilities. For some reason, I am having nightmares about everything now. It is not quite the good time I thought it would be, although, it is just the beginning so, there is a lot of time to find the fun I am looking for.